Brayden's 1 Month Photos

I still cannot my little Baby Boy is already 6 weeks and something days old.  Time is flying right by and he is growing up a little too fast for me to grasp.

I promise to be better at blogging, but he's been keeping me busier than I've ever been in my life... and I love it!

Here are some pictures that his Dad took on the day that he turned one month old... I mean, young!

Look at that smile!

Always posin'!

My FAVE!!

He woke up and gave Mommy and Daddy the glare! LOL

Back At It... Sorta!

Well, well, well... what do we have here?  My old little blog, of course!

Its been quite awhile since I've last checked in.  Life has been SO busy lately that I've been pretty bad at blogging.  Oops!  I really need to get back on it so that I can document life's little events and all the wonderful things that I've been blessed with.  Its nice to go back and reminisce every now and then.  If I don't blog now, what am I going to refer back to in the future?  o_O

I'm currently on maternity leave and just waiting for my bundle of joy to arrive.  We finally got our little office area set up in our house so hopefully this will help me get back in the groove of things.

It's actually past my bedtime, but I shall have more to say and time to say it in days to come. 

Here is a picture of Hubby and I during our maternity photo shoot with my great friend, Nara.

MORE PICTURES!!

As promised, more updates to come later!  :)

December 14th, 2011

(I couldn't think of a more clever title to this post because honestly, I have no idea what I am going to blab about now)

Guess what... I'm 27 years young now!  I have never been happier in my life, and I just wanted to let you know that this year will be an amazing year... watch!

My Husband and I finally moved into our new home a few months ago.  We were on one heck of a roller coaster ride (a long one at that) on the house hunting/shopping.  We found a house that we both love and are now busy making a house a home. 

We're expecting our first child, a BOY this upcoming April.  (He may be here as early as March, but we are still shooting for an April baby)  Most Moms would know that this pregnancy is taking a toll on me and is zapping up all of my time and energy.  Free time is spent snuggled up in bed, exactly where I want to be to embrace the little wiggles and kicks of my baby boy.  Words cannot explain how much I love this little man already... I just can't wait to meet him!  Less than four months to go, sweetie!

Work has been great... I couldn't have asked for better relationships with colleagues.  I feel like we're a big ol' family, and that is so important to me when it comes to people that I will spend most of my time with.  I earned an award in the company a couple of weeks ago... my first real plaque from a job.  As you can see, I'm pretty proud of that.  Hard work really does and should/will pay off... I'm a true believer of that.

I am reminded of how blessed I am everyday.  Especially, on my birthday, of course!  My family and friends are the best that anyone could ever ask for.  I mean... who really gets 5 cakes in one day?  (My coworker brought one to the office in the morning, had another cake at lunch when the company took me out to celebrate, and was surprised by my favorite cake from my Husband at my birthday dinner where two of my girlfriends also brought separate cakes for me)  Needless to say, I will be caked out for awhile.  I know that I sound like I am bragging.  I mean, maybe I am... I am very proud to say that I am loved by wonderful people. 

I'm flying back home for the holidays in 9 days.  I can't wait to wake up and hang out with my parents, dim sum brunch with the family, sushi (cooked ones for me) dinners with my siblings, speed shopping sprees with my sisters, playtime and baking with and for my neices and nephews, and of course, slumber parties with my girlfriends just like we did 10+ years ago.  I'll be there for 8 days (10 if you include the traveling days), but that already doesn't seem like enough.  I'm definitely going to make the best out of it. 

While I'm there, my close (Washington) girlfriends are throwing me a baby shower!  I know that its so early in the game, but they insist.  Honestly, I'd take any excuse to hang out with my loved ones, so I am all game.  I just feel really guilty that they are doing so much for me... but as they say, its the things that I would do the same for them.  Its times like these when you learn who will be there for you and be genuinely happy and supportive of you during such an important time in your life.  Luckily for me, I have a couple of handfuls (both in Washington and California) that I know are the best of friends that a girl can have. 

Okay... enough bragging about how happy and grateful I am.  I seriously could probably go on forever, but I'll spare you the time.

Goodnight! :)

Thankful

Lately, I have been more and more thankful for everything that I have in life.  I have a family who cares about and loves me tremendously. I have a Husband who adores me and would move the world for me. I have friends who I love and care about where the feelings are mutual. I have a roof over my head every day and night. I have a job that helps pay the bills and allows me to live comfortably. 

I can't imagine why I wouldn't love my life at the moment. 

Life, I love you.  Thank you.

When my horoscope is RIGHT on the DOT!

“You are doing a lot of deep thinking now, but you might decide not to go public with your thoughts. Nevertheless, you may come across as if your emotions aren't very important when you talk about them in a detached manner. Ironically, you may believe that changes are occurring, even if nothing happens. Be courageous and find your voice. Take a risk and express what's really in your heart.”

HOW FITTING AND RIGHT ON THE DOT!?!


The other day, I was talking to Sandy and she suggested that I continue to blog some more… like I used to before. My answer? Well, just read my horoscope above! That is exactly what is going on with me and in my mind.
 Its true… I AM a Sagittarius!

Weekend, I LOVE YOU!

I love my weekends and lately, these two days are more precious than ever. Unfortunately, the time just speeds on by and it is wayyyyyy too short for me. I really think that weekends should be three days long. How are you supposed to work hard and play even harder when play time is less than half the time as work time? Hmph!



This past weekend was my ideal kind of weekend with the exception that it was far too short and I still need another day to catch up with the things that I need to in my personal life.


Saturday was spent with my Husband. I woke up pretty early and hit the gym by myself as I left my Husband alone to sleep in (he loves that). I came home in time to have lunch with him. After lunch, we went and treated ourselves to hour long full body massages. We both really needed it. I even fell asleep on the massage chair and caught myself snoring a few times! It was amazing. It hurt, but it hurt in a good way and I can’t wait to do it all over again! Then, we went grocery shopping (I love grocery shopping). We came home and relaxed for a bit before he cooked me a yummy crab dinner. The sauce that he made was SOOOOOO good. I really think that we should put a patent on it because it was THAT tasty! Men that can cook are so sexy… and I am pretty lucky! We rented a movie but after ONE margarita after dinner, I knocked out 10 minutes into the movie. We’re going to have to see it another time. LOL!


Sunday, I woke up to my girlfriend’s text and hit the gym… AGAIN! I’m on a roll, right? Let’s see how long I can keep this up! After an hour there, I came home and got ready for my day after I made a wonton and egg noodle soup for Hubby. Then, it was fun day with the girls! Brought one of them to the eyebrow threading salon I went to the other week and watched her struggle in the chair. LOL… poor girl, but it was a sight to see and the results are gorgeous! We headed up to LA for the Thread Show that I was invited to attend with a guest, but I brought TWO guests! Oops! It’s okay… the more the merrier! It was my first time at one of these shows and it was interesting and quite the experience. Since we were in LA, we decided to do some shopping (of course) instead of hiking… oops! Hey… shopping is definitely a work out… especially when you’re carrying a few bags! Drained, we decided to stop by this ramen place in LA. Daikokuya - With over 2,500 good reviews on Yelp, we couldn’t pass it up. I admit though… I’m not a big fan of ramen so I didn’t really know how to rate it. For a small place though, it was getting a lot of traffic and the people who like ramen think it’s great so it must be, right? A great day with the girls, but the day was too short. We didn’t even get to go to Sephora or Nordstrom like we had planned because it closed early. There’s always next weekend, right? Have a few trips planned as well, so I’m excited! I love girls’ time… especially with the kind of girlfriends that you can talk to about ANYTHING! I love seeing my friends happy… it makes me happy.


Came home to see that the Mavs beat the Heat in the finals. I don’t really care for basketball, but I just know that I don’t like LeBron James and his attitude. He just seems SO rude in all of the games I’ve ever seen him play in. Ugh… glad the Mavs won the championship! I actually got teary eyed! HAHA!


I wish the weekend included Monday so that I can spend all day today cleaning and relaxing on my couch, cuddling a book. Until I can have my three day weekends, I think I am going to have to squeeze that in on my weekdays. Eeeps!


So… anyone want to share their weekends with me?

June Gloom

You would think that after living in Southern California for about 22 months now, “gloom” would be out of my vocabulary. Well, its back… in SoCal, my vocabulary, and in my life.



The other day, I was told that I worry and stress way too much. I was told that I have a lot on anxiety and I try to conceal it all. She said that I have not been myself lately. I know that this is true because as she was telling me, I couldn’t fight or deny it. Instead, my eyes started to water because she’s right… she’s absolutely right.


Although I try my best to be my usual bubbly and upbeat self, I guess I cannot hide it as well as I thought I could. Moreover, I cannot believe that someone saw through it and was telling this to my face.


There is more that I wish I can say, but I will hold back on it for now. My poor Husband and friends hear too much about it every day that it’s sort of pointless to remind myself of it here.


What am I going to do about it?


I am going to truly relax… with wine over a massage, followed by a bubble bath.


Weekend, what is taking you so long? I’ve missed you! Days feel like years.

RESTART!

I will be the first to admit that I have been really bad at keeping my new years’ resolutions. In fact, I never even started it to begin with! 5 months through the year now and starting off the 6th, and I am still nowhere near beginning my new years’ resolutions. Horrible, horrible, horrible! Maybe I should just go with a mid-years’ resolution instead so that I can get a fresh start on it today? Okay… I will do just that! Let’s hope that I keep this mid-year’s resolution… cross your fingers, people!

Speaking of, I can’t believe its June already! This year definitely flew on by and as usual, I wish it would stop or slow down a little for me to catch up with everything. I guess it usually doesn’t work like that, does it? Oh well… I should feel blessed. I do feel blessed, actually.


I think I have much more to say, but this is just an introduction to my return.

Hello.

Just a peep!

I suck at keeping my word about blogging lately.  I mean... I really really suck.

SO much has happened... ugh!

First thing's first - We did not get the house that we had wanted... it was the seller's fault.  I don't want to get into it again because it will only make me more angry than I have already been the past few weeks.  Can you imagine?  We put in our notice at our apartment, packed up most of our stuff and moved it to my in law's for storage, ready to move on out.  We were just about to be on our way to wire the funds over and get our keys within the following two days but our lender and our agent told us to hold off because there were some issues with the sellers side.  Lets just say that fraudulent paperwork is a big NO NO and we could really take legal actions if we wanted to, but I did some research on my own and found that these "investors" already have a lot coming their way... its going to bite them in the ass.  So basically, we are back at square one with our house hunting.  They are so lucky that we were able to keep our apartment (even after putting in notice), or else it would NOT be pretty.  I really don't want to deal with such people or shall I say, "professionals" anymore.  I'll take it as a blessing in disguise though.  We'll see where it goes from here.

I love my new job and have been here for over two months now.  I'm still a newbie and still learning but I am feeling challenged and I love that!  The location couldn't work out more perfectly for me.  :D

On another note, Happy Khmer New Year!!

I'll be back later with more.  Keeping my word this time!  Toodle loo!

Wow/

Its been THAT long since I've last posted something?  Okay... that can only mean one thing.  I've been busy.  I mean... really really busy.  There's not enough time in the world right now for me to post long gibberish posts.  Or maybe there is and I've just been too drained to actually remember to post during my down time?  I don't know, but whatever it is... it needs to stop. 

I will try to post more frequently, I promise.

What's new?  The job, the house, the many makeup gigs I've already committed to.  Still trying to make time to see loved ones along the way.  Of course, my main loves are too far to see on a regular at the moment, but I am coordinating some trips back home.  I can't wait to see my Parents... I've missed them more than ever.  :(

Details to come soon!  TTYL!

I GOT IT!

Its been a long time coming, but

I got the job!!

I've been waiting quite awhile to say that.  Such a great feeling.  Its been so long that I feel like I am learning how to walk again.  I may stumble every now and then, but I pick back up and keep on walking... better every step.  :)

I can't express how happy I am about the job and my close friends know that it can't be any more perfect than this.  (Of course more money would be great, but that makes everything better, so it doesn't count. LOL)

What's crazy is that immediately after I got hired, I started getting responses from other companies.

 WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN THIS LAST YEAR? 

*shakes head* 

You know how they say that things happen for a reason?  Well, I am a true believer.

On Monday, we submitted our paperwork for OUR house.  *crosses fingers still*  Tuesday, I get a job.  I seriously felt like this had been MY week.  Its better than my birthday week, actually (and that was pretty hard to beat).  I did buy Mega Millions and SuperLotto lottery tickets, but I didn't win a dime.  Oh well, I'm already a winner!!

Last night, I kept waking up every hour paranoid that I would be late for work.  Eeeps... good thing I wasn't! 

Alright... night night time for me.  Sweet dreams... and please still keep your fingers crossed for us and OUR house.  More details about it later AFTER we close escrow (I hope).  And after the house... who knows what comes next?  ;)

The Waiting Game

We put an offer in for a house last night.  We shall see what happens.

When people say that purchasing a home is one of the most stressful times of your life, they are absolutely right.  I am enjoying the house hunting part, but its the little things that are going to make such a difference in our lives that is stressful.  The responsibilities that comes with it is another stress maker.  Oh man...

Even so, I know that this will be very rewarding in the end.

Keeping our fingers crossed and waiting for THE phone call.  Eeeps!!

The Good Ol' Days...

I had a dream that I was in gymnastics again!  What surprises me is that I still remember the floor routine from elementary school.  When I woke up, I laid there trying to play the routine in my head and saw it clearly and perfectly.  Nowadays, I can barely do a forward roll let alone a round-off backhand spring.  Ahhh... I miss those days!

I am going to contact my old gymnastics instructor to see if he has any videos (on VHS, of course) of any of the old practices or meets.  I would LOVE to see them.

I had THE best childhood ever.  Sure, there was hardcore child labor in there (if you only knew), but it was what made me into the person that I am today.  That story could take forever, so I will save it for another day.  But even with the labor and the occasional abuse, I still had the best and most balanced childhood I can imagine.

Sometimes, I wish that my children could live my childhood.  I know that with the technology and difference in lifestyles now, it wouldn't be possible.  But, if only they could, I would document every little thing because it would be a great story to tell.

*sigh*

Here we go... AGAIN!

The house hunting continues... or begins!

Last year, Sam and I were on a hunt for a house.  We didn't find anything in our budget and things came up and we decided to take a little break from the stress of it all and just enjoy ourselves for awhile.  But now, it looks like we are back on the market!

Personally, its been really difficult for me to come to a realization that homes here in Southern California are way more expensive than homes in Washington.  For $300K in Washington, you can find a great, brand new 4 bedrooms and 2 baths in a nice neighborhood.  Here?  Eh... don't even get me started.  It makes me sad and I just want to move back to Washington already just for the better deal. But I know that I can't because of Sam's work. 

Ahhh... I'm going to have to learn how to settle.

One day, I shall own a house in California AND another in Washington.  Today, I have neither.  Wahhhh!!

But hey... at least I still have my health, family, friends, a roof over my head and food on the table.  Just counting a few of my many blessings.

Oh hello, mood swings!  :)

Too Much Junk...

... not just in the trunk but everywhere else!

Gaining about 20 pounds in four months without being pregnant is not normal.  What the hell have I done to myself? 

Time to get a grip and get back on the right track.

Exercising already started, but will bump that up a bit. 
Dieting starts NOW.

I am really upset with myself at the moment and trying hard to refrain from punching myself in the face.  I am sure many of you are thinking that I should just shut up and do it already (punch myself in the face)... haha!  Nah... I already messed up my body, I don't want to mess up my face too.  Its practically the only thing that is still decent!  LOL

Any good diet and fitness tips and advices out there?  Seriously... I will take and try to use anything that I can get.  I need to lose weight... now... fast!  HELP ME!

Quickie!

Check, check, and CHECK!

Yesterday was just a day full of errands.

First things first, I am officially a Californian!!  For the past year, I refused to get a California ID because I didn't want to stop being a Washingtonian.  However, I have to legally change my address after I move.  Sure, I changed my address everywhere else except for on my driver's license.  I refused!  Anyway, I had to come down to it and finally get it.  I'm looking forward to getting the ID and having Californian privileges (discounts to amusement parks... haha!), but I am never going to rid my Washington ID.  NEVER!!

Sam got a ticket a few weeks ago (boo boo, I know).  We had to go get it signed off at one place and then had to bring it to another place only to find out that it isn't even in the system yet.  Sort of frustrating because he took the day off for that purpose.  Oh well, at least we're almost done dealing with that.  Blah.

Also finally got some stuff done to the car.  Whoot whoot... I feel better about driving it now although I haaaaaaate driving with a passion.  I'm one of those people who are meant to have a chauffeur. *wink wink* 

After getting tons of errands done, we went on a house hunt.  Yes, the house hunting is back on and its been fun.  I can't wait until we finally have a house of our own.  Lots of responsibilities, but I know it will be worth it.

Then, here comes baby!  And no... I'm not pregnant.  LOL.  I want to be after we have a house though. Just sayin'!

Alright... thats all for now.  I will have to come back and vent about a conversation I had with my cousin (not so little 23 year old cousin) this morning.  Ugh... don't even get me started!

Okay... toodles!

Good Things are HAPPENIN'!

I have been a lot happier nowadays.  My friends have noticed it.  My Husband noticed it.  Heck, even I noticed it!

Things are slowly but surely looking up for me and I can honestly say that I am happy doing what I do.  Of course, its not as fast paced as I would like for it to be at the moment, but its going somewhere.

Its Halloween weekend and I barely have Halloween on my mind.  I actually just want to stay home and work on a few projects that really need to get done.  I used to live by the motto, "work hard, but play harder"... but why is it that I just want to work harder and harder and not play at all?  Another sign of old age, is it?

I can't be a party pooper and I can NOT neglect my family and friends though.  I must live by my motto (for this blog, anyway), "Cherish The Moments".

I hope everyone has a fun and safe Halloween weekend!

*hugs*

OH... of course, I did another update on my OTHER blog:  http://thydalim.blogspot.com

And if you haven't already, check out my site (that is still under construction):  http://thydalim.com

Weddings... can you feel the love?

I woke up this morning to the sun rays beaming through my weak shutters and birds chirping.  Thats how I knew it is going to be a great day.  And even if it isn't a perfect day, I am going to try my best to make it a wonderful one.  Got an interview this morning... and so do 29 others who are fighting for the same position that I am going for.  I know that it sounds like a lot and is a bit intimidating, but I am trying not to let it get to me.  I have nothing to lose and the least that I can gain from this is practice.  I always learn something new, and I am ready for that at the very least.  

Looking on my calendar and I can see that wedding season is kicking in.  I have at least one wedding to attend each month for the next 6 months.  Wow.  I love weddings and I am not complaining one bit, but it makes me feel giddy inside to know that my friends are falling in love and taking this step into their future.  I can't explain how happy I am to know this and I hope that I can join each and every one of them on their wedding day... though this might be difficult since the weddings are held all over the world, it seems.  I just found out that my cousin's son (who is 21) is getting married in May!  Personally, I feel that 21 is a bit young, but who am I to say?  I don't know their relationship and as long as they are happy and in love, I couldn't be happier for the little twerp I call my "nephew".  (all of my cousins' kids are my nieces and nephews to me... the whole second and third cousin thing is just way too confusing to remember with a huge family like mine)  There is something about weddings that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.  :)

My best friend is getting married this summer... the same weekend as my wedding anniversary (so we can celebrate our wedding anniversaries together in the future, duh!).  They are so in love and one of the most loving couples that I know!  She calls me for tips and suggestions on a lot of the wedding plans, and I am loving it!  Although I am a thousand miles away, its nice to know that she still comes to me when she needs a second or third opinion.  I'm glad that even when we are so far away, our friendship still grows and we still make time for each other... even if its for the half hour morning commutes to work.  Anyway... wedding planning is so much fun when its not your own.  As indecisive as I am, thank goodness I am not the one who has to make the final decision like I did for my own wedding.  I am one of the people who can come up with a million ideas and suggestions but if you were to ask me to make a decision, my mind goes numb and blank.

I look forward to the little things like the Save-the-Dates, the details on the invitations, the centerpieces, the guestbook, the cake topper, the wedding favors, the details on the dresses... you know, all the fun stuff.  OH... and I especially look forward to the food and the dancing!  (How could you not?)  Inevitably, I am going to need waterproof mascara.  I don't remember going to a wedding where I did not cry at.  Yes, I am a sucker for love and a walking ball of emotions and tears.  My friend asked me to help her find some readings for her ceremony, and I was crying while coming across some things I found on Google!  Yes, Google makes me cry!

Let me reminisce my wedding a little bit...

Daddy and Mommy pretending to cut my hair.
Laughing and crying tears of joy because I adore my Parents so much!

Mommy kissing me and whispering in my ear in Khmer how much she loved me as she was blessing me... I couldn't hold it in.

SOME of the elders in my Family on stage as we all gave our "thank you" speech.  Mommy kissing me as I spoke and tried to hold in my tears.  Thanks, Mom... you just defeated the purpose and made me cry more!  LOL

Dancing with my HANDSOME Daddy.  He doesn't dance and kept trying to tell me to cut it short.  No way, Jose... we are dancing until the very last tune!  He is so adorable and still to this day, the Man with the biggest heart anyone has ever known.

Resemblance? Its in our personalities and our upper lips (they disappear when we smile)... LOL!

Hitting the dance floor with my Friends and Family.  The Man in te black suit and the big smile is my loving Uncle... who I love sooooo much!  I tend to get silly with all of my Family members and I don't think I'd ever grow out of it and they still see me as the silly little 7 year old without any front teeth!  :D

and finally, with my loving Husband.  (nuff said)

Okay... reminiscing some of the happiest moments of my life set the mood to an even greater day and now I am going to knock the socks off whomever is interviewing me.  I hope they're ready for this!  :)

Wake up and smell the flowers... even if its rotten.

I think I came to the acceptance that the world is a scary and dangerous place. I wrote how I felt about the tragedy that took place just last month where four innocent Lakewood police officers were shot to death at a coffee shop before they were even on shift. The other day, two other Tacoma police officers responded to a domestic violence call where they were shot by a man who was shot dead at the scene. The officers are both in critical condition, but thankfully, they are still alive and breathing at the moment. I understand that the field is a dangerous one and they all know what kind of danger they are putting themselves in by choosing those particular fields, but the loss and pain is still very heartbreaking. It annoys me when I see that people disrespect and mock those who are actually protecting us and are genuinely concerned about our well being. Why else would anyone put themselves in that kind of danger? It is because they are selfless and willing to put others before themselves. The world really needs more people with these hearts.

The first thing I usually do is check for updates and news hoping to see good news, but I am often left disappointed. I don't know why I do this knowing that I am a scared chicken, but I can't help myself. I like to know whats going on... especially real things that are happening or have happened because you never know what is waiting for you around the corner (literally and figuratively). My heart is still in Washington and maybe that is why I am more cautious and aware of things going on over there than over here in California. Most of my Family is back in Washington, of course I am concerned! These recent crimes resulting in death are just too close to home that I feel this ache in my heart as I learn about each one of them. I don't try to be a pessimist with these situations. In fact, I was usually known as the optimistic one in any situation, but I guess real life is just hitting me... hitting me hard.

I watched the 15 Most Unthinkable Crimes and am now watching the 20 Shocking Unsolved Crimes. Some of these crimes are just unbelievable and heartbreaking. What scares me most is knowing that some of these crimes are not yet solved so those sickening murderers are still on the loose and walking the streets. Not to overanalyze, but its only natural for me to do so... but can you imagine how many other people are out there with these sickening thoughts and the possibilities that crimes such as these can and will happen again?

The world is a scary place and I understand that we should not stop our lives because these things are happening, but we should also be very cautious and aware of our surroundings. It is important to learn what is going on with our communities and keep everyone (not just those that we care about) informed on what is going on. You never know who/what will strike next and who the next victim will be. Therefore, lets try our best to keep our communities safe and aware. This is the least that anyone can do. You can't point at a person and deem them the next murderer, but you sure can remind people to be more observant and aware of what is going on so that they can avoid dangerous situations that are life threatening.

Its great to be optimistic and see the goods and positives of life, but we also have to be realistic and accept that we live in a twisted society. Are these type of behaviors and cases welcome? Of course not, but it seems to find its way in regardless. I'm not saying that we should put our lives on pause and dwell over it, but just keep it in mind and don't forget. Sadness, sorrow, and death are also parts of each life. Don't ever take a moment or person for granted... its hard (if even possible) to take back.

Clear Space, Clear Mind

I never knew that it would make such a big difference in my life since I was always a messy and disorganized person. I refused to have a place for everything because that just made everything so bland and boring and there wasn't such a thrill in finding things when I needed them. I secretly get a rush whenever I am in a hurry and am on a mission to get something done. Its like this little game that I play with myself to see if I can actually complete the task. And if I beat the clock, then I am a winner in my eyes.

I have accepted that the little game that I played had caused me time, stress, and frustration. Time that I don't have, stress that I don't need, and frustration that nearly makes one of the vessels in my brain pop and pour straight out of my eyeballs. I know that sounded pretty graphic and dramatic, but thats how I imagine it and the thought of it haunts me nearly everyday because I feel like I am on the verge of reaching that state. Pray for me. It doesn't hurt to have all of my pens and pencils in one place. Having a jar for my loose change rather than all over the floor and in various pockets of my jeans and purses makes me feel richer than I really am. Not having to stress about the dishes in the sink or the overflowing laundry basket gives me a piece of mind and gives me time to stress about other things that are more deserving of my thoughts. I guess adding some organization and tidyness into my life isn't so bad afterall. I'd have to come up with new games that will somehow act as motivation. Like a child, everyday is a game to me and I wonder who would win. So far, it hasn't been 'game over' and like most other games, if I complete a task or accomplish something (no matter how small), there is more time added to my clock and I get a boost of energy and life. Whoever said that people who like to play games is silly.

Life is a game. Play it how you like to and don't give up... just make sure you enjoy every moment of it and don't forget to pause it for short potty breaks.