The Good Ol' Days...

I had a dream that I was in gymnastics again!  What surprises me is that I still remember the floor routine from elementary school.  When I woke up, I laid there trying to play the routine in my head and saw it clearly and perfectly.  Nowadays, I can barely do a forward roll let alone a round-off backhand spring.  Ahhh... I miss those days!

I am going to contact my old gymnastics instructor to see if he has any videos (on VHS, of course) of any of the old practices or meets.  I would LOVE to see them.

I had THE best childhood ever.  Sure, there was hardcore child labor in there (if you only knew), but it was what made me into the person that I am today.  That story could take forever, so I will save it for another day.  But even with the labor and the occasional abuse, I still had the best and most balanced childhood I can imagine.

Sometimes, I wish that my children could live my childhood.  I know that with the technology and difference in lifestyles now, it wouldn't be possible.  But, if only they could, I would document every little thing because it would be a great story to tell.

*sigh*

I Miss You...

My Husband woke me up the other morning because I was crying in my sleep.  Though I wasn't fully asleep anymore, I still felt the sadness from my dream because it wasn't only just a dream to me.

I dreamt of my Grandmother.  I miss her and think about her often, but its been awhile since she last visited me in my dreams.  There she was laying on the couch in my old house, covered in a blanket and watching TV.  She only had one blanket over her and I wanted to make sure that she was warm and cozy enough.  I told her that she should be warmer and she tried to reach for the other blanket at the end of her feet.  She was barely able to move, but she moved a lot more than I last remember her.  I walked over and pulled the blanket to cover her more.  Looking at her, I knew that my time left with her wasn't much.  I took her in my arms and hugged her tight and kept whispering to her telling her that I love her.  I felt the warmth from her at first, but slowly she started to drift further from me and I started to cry.  I didn't want to let her go and I just wanted to make sure that she knows that I love her and will miss her when she's gone.  I couldn't stop the tears in my dreams. 

I woke up. 

Though I could stop the tears when I was awake, I allowed myself to cry some more.  My heart still ached because she was no longer in my life.  It was somewhat of a release of the emotions I've felt from missing her so much for so long.

In my dreams, she acknowledged the fact that I loved her.  She nodded to tell me that she knows that I love her.  I feel like she came to visit me in my dreams to let me know that she knows that I miss her.  Why?  I don't know... but I am glad to know that she knows.  And I was glad to see her again, even if it was only in my dreams.

I miss you, Grandma. I love you.

Dreaming... Quadruplets!

Yesterday was Sam's day off.  FINALLY.  The sun was out and I wanted to explore a little bit.  One of his coworkers told me that I should check out Old Town Pasadena because its a fun place to roam around and hang out.  So, I dragged my loving Husband out of bed to bring me!  (Now I feel really bad because we are both sick... he is worse than I)

After an hour drive, I was sort of disappointed.  I had no idea it was a downtown area for SHOPPING.  When I hear "Old Town", I was thinking of a cool old town with historic buildings and such and a feast for my eyes.  Blah... oh well... lets make the best of it, right?  Y'alls know that I love to shop but feeling a little woozy and sick, I wasn't really in the mood.  We grabbed sushi and sake instead because we were sort of hungry.  Needless to say, we got a bit tipsy together from the sake.  Yeah... and I know that we're sick, I just thought that alcohol would kill the sick germs.  LOL.  On a full stomach now and still nearly two hours left in the parking meter, we shopped around a bit.  I like it when Sam brings me shopping when he is tipsy.  Because of that, I got three new jackets from H&M.  Thanks Baby!!  If you didn't already know, there's a sale going on.. $15 off jackets and blazers for men AND women.  Great deal, if you ask me... BUT it ends today so if you're reading this, hurry up and get to an H&M today!  Sucks that you can't shop online in USA though... sucks really bad.

Stuck in traffic on our way home, but decided to drive down to Santa Ana for groceries because I've been craving mangoes!  I was disappointed to see that they didn't have very many good ones left.  Hmph!  :(  Came home after grabbing some boba... and thats when it hit us that we were both getting sick... worse than earlier in the morning.  Boo!


Now... let me tell you about my dream!!

I dreamt that I was pregnant.  I was about 5 months along and then all of a sudden, I gave birth... to FOUR babies!  I had quadruplets!  They were 4 beautiful girls and for some reason, their names were, Lexie, Kenzie, Violet, and Iggy.  WTF and why they were their names, I don't know.  I think Lexie and Violet was because I was thinking about my cousin's daughter whose first name is Lexia, but we call her Lexie and the other side of her family calls her Violet, which is her middle name.  Also, because Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory was on last night and one of the kids' names was Violet... the girl who turns violet.  LOL.  Kenzie probably because I love the name, "MacKenzie" and is the name I wanted to name my daughter whenever I have her.  Iggy... I don't know... but WTF, right?  LOL!  I woke up and told Sam... I think he's scared.  My poor Husband... he really wants a baby right now, but understands that I am not yet ready and would still like to do more before I have a baby.  :)  BUT... my dream was so real and it was such a long dream that I fell so much in love with my daughters and I miss them right now thinking about it.  I can't describe the feeling, but man... I can't wait to be a Mommy one day.  One day.

Now... I think I'm gonna go back to bed and let me head rest a bit.  I just wanted to share my dream because it is really making me smile right now.

So Much To Do!!!

So I'm leaving for WA tomorrow at 6am for my Family Reunion. Sam is leaving after work on Friday with my nephew, my Sister, and her boyfriend. My relatives from Ohio and Boston are already there. I'm so excited to see all of the Family again and this time, I'd have time to hang out and mingle with all of them! Yayyy! I need to start packing. Don't know what to bring, but from what I've heard, its been really cold! Yikes! Will be a pretty long stay for me (5 days), but its all good... I can't wait!

Gotta go pick up some stuff for my Mom and then pick up some freakin' Thai lakorns for my sisters. They are so obsessed, its ridiculous.

Yesterday, Sam and I attempted to go to the gym. FAIL. We also told ourselves and each other that we are not going to shop for now reason. FAIL. We will not buy useless "ka'pek ka'pok" things. FAIL. We will not waste money on eating out and will just eat and try to finish everything we have at home before we both go out of town. FAIL. We will try to eat better and healthier... ultimate FAIL! I waited all week long to watch The City and The Hills... but fell asleep right when The Hills started... so FAIL!!!!! Yesterday was just a total FAIL! FML.

From what I can remember... I've been having some weird dreams! I see a lot of old friends I have lost touch with in my dreams. Strange.

This morning, I woke up feeling gross... like I'm extra ogre status or something. I've been eating so much lately that if I didn't know any better, I would think that I'm pregnant! Yikes! I'm not ready for any babies... but Sam surely wants one. Like... he REALLY wants one. Weird guy.

Okay... lots to do and I need to get off this damn thing!

OH... and I think I'm slowly moving towards twitter over facebook. I am so tired of keeping up with all my friends' statuses that there are some that I "hid". Probably because they usually post the same things promoting their events or what not and I'm just like... I don't care. I know that sounds horrible, but I'd rather keep it more personal. Tempted to delete some "friends" who are really more of "acquaintances" than anything. We'll see.

Okey dokes... bye!

Wait, wait, wait.... looking forward to Jenn's birthday this weekend. So excited that she and Joe are coming to visit us on my birthday too. My love of my life (Jenn)... yay!! Then... some of the girls and I are going to the People's Choice 2010 Awards in LA in January... so excited! AND... looks like we're going to Six Flags Magic Mountain in a couple of weeks. Damn, I love doin' things and just getting out in general!

Okay... bye for real.

In Trouble...

Yeah... Sam's in so much trouble!! Well, I haven't talked to him yet today, but he's going to be in so much trouble!

WHY? Because I had a bad dream.... a really really bad one where he was being bad!! o_O

I hope I don't forget all the details by the time I talk to him because it was pretty detailed! LOL

Dream... or Nightmare?

So last night, I dreamt that I was being chased and attacked by so many freakin' snakes. My heart was racing while I was sleeping. It was terrifying. I hate snakes... scary! One of the many snakes that I remembered VERY clearly in my dream though was a two headed snake. I was just telling my Mom about the dream because I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't go back to sleep. She was like, "be careful... maybe there's two people who love you". I was like... "MOM... thats an insult! More people gotta love me than that!" She almost hit me! LOL!

Scared...

I had THE weirdest dream last night. I dreamt that I was PREGNANT and gave birth at 7 weeks and the baby was fully grown! WTF?! I don't know how to describe it... but it was the little things that creeped me out. I know for a fact that I'm not pregnant and I don't plan on getting pregnant for the next couple of years, at least. SO... this dream really creeped me out!

I spent three bucks on the lottery last night and didn't win jack sh*t. Sam goes, "its okay Baby... I'll pay you back". If I would have known he'd reimburse me for the lottery tickets, I would have spent $50 or something! LOL! I really need to win the lottery... I really, really do. If others can win, so can I... right? I hope so! If I win, I'll share something with everyone who wishes me luck! I'm serious!!

OH my gosh... going back to bed with a box of chocolates! I hate being sick... but I love using it as an excuse to just sleep and eat. LOL!

All BRUISED Up...

I don't know how, but I always seem to wake up with unexplainable bruises. I think I might have blogged about this a long time ago, but I still have the same problem. There's NOTHING on my bed (besides my phone, my TV remote, and my book occasionally)... and I have a queen size bed all to myself. Still, I wake up with unexplainable bruises. Maybe I get them during the day and don't realize it until the next morning? Strange! Right now, I'm sitting here with two unexplainable bruises on my arms and one at the bottom of my foot. As for the one on my foot, its probably from all the running I've been doing. I've noticed the pain on my foot since yesterday... which caused me to decrease my distance (yes... I'm blaming it on the pain and not myself). Well, maybe its not a bruise just yet, but its a big red spot at the bottom of my foot where it hurts. Booo! Or maybe I really do need new shoes? Hmmm...! Anyway... yeah... how can one be so clumsy to the point they get hurt even when they sleep? o_O

Speaking of sleep... whats weird is that I really miss Sam snoring. LOL! Yesterday, he was talking to me and knocked out within ten seconds of saying something to me and was SNORING like crazy. I was cracking up because it sounded so ugly, yet, I missed it so much. I'm lame.

Taught my nephew the teeth brushing song this morning. He was in the tub and totally dancing to my singing. We make a great team! I wish I can bring him with me when I go to California. Even Mary said that he's such a cool kid and not the typical kid who just wants to stay home and watch TV all day. Uhhh... he IS that kid who wants to watch TV all day, but I don't allow it and make him play with me and read to me. Haha... love that kid!

We were talking about names this morning. Mary mentioned that people with plain names tend to try to make up for it with their personalities... like Jane and Mary... their personalities are great! I asked her, "how about me?" and she goes, "You live up to your name!" LOL... I don't know what thats supposed to mean, but I'm going to take it as a compliment. I can't imagine myself with any other name and I can't picture my friends being named anything differently. Mary said she doesn't look like a "Mary", but to me, she defines "MARY"!!

Dreamin'!

So excited for my trips that I even dreamt that I was being kidnapped to my destinations! LOL!

Lithium Laced?

I had a dream that I was yelling at some random kids eating some lithium laced chicken nuggets in front of my house. WTF? Chicken nuggets of all things. Maybe because I fell asleep to the Sex and the City episode where Carrie ran into a lady who laced her ice cream with lithium? Probably! But dude... how scary. Kids lacing their chicken nuggets. I can never look at a chicken nugget the same way again... before I eat it, of course.

Ranns will be in Cambodia soon and I hope she has internet access ASAP so that she can get in contact with Rami. She wants to network out there and I figure that Rami would be a great person to talk to and meet. I'm so excited and envious of Ranny... ahhh! Thats my girl!!!

Sam just called me! YAYYYY! I don't get to talk to him everyday, so I was really happy to hear from him! Ahhhh... my sweetheart! I miss him so so so much!

Sick?

I hate not feeling well. Gosh... goes to show how unhealthy I am by how often I get sick throughout the year, huh? *cough* AND I hate taking meds. Yuck. Even if they're the candy coated advils that don't taste so bad. I feel more weak knowing that I have meds in my system. I'm retarded.

I guess I can't go running today because its raining. (YES!!!)

I feel like I want/need a haircut again. I'm THAT bored!! Ahhhh!

Was talking to Sam yesterday while he was walking on campus and I guess it was already 8pm and deers came out to play with him. Holy Sh*t! I would have been so scared! He probably was really scared but tried to act calm and cool. *sigh* I hope I can go visit him soon. But man... where he is is nowhere fun! :(

Had so many weird dreams last night/this morning. It jumped all over the place from hanging out at my old childhood friend's swimming pool to getting punked on the street by some kids while we were in the car. My mind was ALL over the place!

In 3 or 4 years... I hope to have a Baby. Is that crazy? I just want one. But damn... no returns and no exchanges. :(

Dreamin'!

I had a dream about my wedding last night! Surprisingly, it was a good dream... slow, but good. I knew it was a dream right away because my Bridesmaids were skinnier than me! LOL! I also dreamt that I was able to make every single one of my girlfriends a Bridesmaid!! LOL... if only this was a perfect world, right?