March 30, 2007


Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
Take yourself on an escapade, especially if you're in need of a change of pace. (Who knew that this much fun could require so much energy?) It's time to cool it down with a low-key activity.

I need a breather....

March 28, 2007



I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply .

He said, "Please excuse me t oo;
I wasn't watching for you ."

We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye .

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old .

Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.

When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown .

He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,

"While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.

Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door .

Those are th e flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue .

He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.

By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall .

I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said .

"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.

I picked 'em because they're pr etty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."

I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway."

I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers , especially the blue."

Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?


Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21) You have a decision to make, but you need lots of peace and quiet to identify the option that's really best for you. Tell your loved ones you need to do this on your own. Meditation will help clear your mind.

Its starting to scare me how my horoscopes seem to always be right on the dot lately.

Decisions, decisions. What to do? Who to trust?


Its been 10 months... I've been smiling since.

March 27, 2007

Girlfriends... Addiction.

Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
Everyone's got an opinion (or two or three) about what you should do next, but only you know what's best. Ignore everybody's input (which you didn't ask for anyway) and connect with yourself as you revamp your game plan.

I just might!

My head is inflating and I need to be pulled back down to Earth... thanks to a wonderful Photographer whom I overlooked for many years now. Thanks Nack! :)

Happy Hour with the lovely ladies last night was fun... its always a pleasure! I absolutely love nights or gatherings such as that where we can just relax and enjoy ourselves and speak our minds. I mean, we should always speak our minds anyhow... but its even better when you're with such a close knit group of friends whom you trust and feel safe to confide in. I can't say this enough... but I really am blessed with some of the greatest friends a girl can ever have. Not judgmental and accept me for all that I am... flaws included. Its safe to say, that these ladies are my role models in so many ways for so many reasons. Okay... I'll stop being such a sap since I know that they do check up on me and my blog from time to time... just to make sure I'm not causing too much havoc. Oh! And some (no names mentioned... haha) read my blog and is responsible for instigating and encouraging certain ruckus. Gotta love them for that... told you they're supportive of me... and sometimes my temper! ;)

I went to bed pretty late (again)... and woke up only a few hours later at 5am. I think I was still drunk although I only had about 2 glasses of wine last night. I guess my tolerance had gone down drastically considering I've only consumed alcohol a couple times this year... and we're a quarter into the year already! I like it better this way anyhow!

So here I was, half drunk and half alseep... posting away on KC! Man... I really do need an intervention as someone told me a few days ago... and this was coming from a stranger! But be proud of me... the first step to fixing a problem is acknowledging the problem. I acknowledge it alright... and so does everyone else who remind me that I have issues... everyday! Its my stream to the outside world and many worlds I can only wish and dream of experiencing for myself. Besides, if it wasn't for this internet revolution we've beca
me so accustomed to, how else would I meet so many wonderful people that I've been in contact with for many days, months, and years? I'm not just talking about people we exchange few words with... I'm talking about the friends that will listen to you and tell you exactly what you need to hear. Brutal or not. Far more than just "online buddies" as some may see it. They're real. Our friendships are real.

So really... can you blame me?

Forgot to mention, I spilled wine all over myself!

Told you I have many reasons to smile!

March 26, 2007


My horoscope for today:

Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
Someone has feelings for you -- but you may not reciprocate, whether it's admiration, friendship or romance. Just remember that you don't have to feel guilty about it. Sometimes things just can't work out.

I wonder who it could be... and to what extent...

I should really learn how to sleep more. Its weird... I live off a few hours of sleep each day. Sleep really late and wake up really early. I'm wondering if that has anything to do with my inability to lose weight. I've read many times that getting enough sleep is critical... but I can't seem to break or change my habits. I guess I should talk less and do more, huh? Sleep, sleep, sleep...

Sweet dreams? I hope so...

March 25, 2007


Time flies by so fast when you only wish it wouldn't. Weekends seem to be fast forwarded... I hate that! I have a lot I need to do... just need to do it in the given time. Procrastination doesn't help either.

If only TIME can stay this STILL...

March 24, 2007


I'm getting there... almost done!

thanks Nack...


Weekends go by far too fast for me. This is another one of them.

Today marks the anniversary of my Grandmother's passing. I miss her, but I know that she's in a better place.

It will be nice to see the family (those who are in the area and can make it) at the temple today.

I need to go on a diet and actually work out this time... but I can't pry myself to do so during my free time when there's a computer in the picture. Is there an online addiction support group of some sort I can join? Help!


March 22, 2007

Khmer New Years...

I'm really excited for Khmer New Years next month, but now I realize that I have a problem. No Khmer Outfits. I usually get an outfit or two done each year, but I haven't done so in about two years now since I was never really proud of my body or my looks at the time. I seemed to have picked up old outfits and squeezed into them as much as I can.

Now I finally want new outfits for this holiday, but its just a bit too late to get anything made. I have an outfit that I got made back in September, but its still a little loose. Anyone know of any good Khmer seamstress in the Seattle/Tacoma area who can get an outfit done in a week or two? If so... please let me know!

Two outfits below (taken on 3.17.07. by Mark S.) is what I wouldn't mind wearing... just without the pins that are holding it up. Help?

w/ safety pins... still huge. look at the choker!

decent... until you see the pins in the back! haha

March 21, 2007


Wishful thinking...


I have a new interest and obsession. Well, I wouldn't say that its an obsession, but it is definitely something that I am quite interested in. Something that I've wanted to do all my life, but finally have the courage and resources to take the next step. For that, I am thankful...

My life may not be everything I want it to be right now... but I'm starting to accept the fact that life can't always be or go the way that you want it to. I've got to take it day by day... and work on that future of mine... one step at a time.

I'll be ready soon... I promise.

Living, Learning, Laughing... and Loving.

March 20, 2007

I did a whole lot more this weekend than I have done the past few weekends. Saturday, I was busy pretty much all day. Sunday, I went to Bellevue Square. I love that place, and I still can't seem to figure out why. :) Oh... and we had sushi too! I ate so much that I had to undo my belt and button whenever we got to the car!!

Sunaro... always picks on me but I know she loves me! :D

Sunday night, went over to Grace's. She hosted a potluck and there seemed to be SO much good food, but I had nowhere to put it in this tummy of mine. I did have the French dessert that Manu made... it was yummy! Finished off the night with a game of Taboo, and as predicted, the girls won.... NO SWEAT. I still don't understand why the guys believe that they have a chance. Haven't they learned from the last how many ever times that we played that the girls never, ever lose. We tried to not be so hard on them and not do a battle of the sexes, but these stubborn and prideful guys were still wishfully thinking. Uhmmm... shattered dreams for them... once again.

Davy... I want the body of a goddess like her!!

Good times as always... it was nice to see some of the faces I love and had not seen in awhile. I love low key nights such as this. :)

Davy, Grace, Sunaro, Thyda... my friends are hott, huh?

Oh... and I had to hijack a camera with my PEACE sign and overcheese! ;)

March 19, 2007

For the Garden of Your Daily Living


1. Peace of mind
2. Peace of heart
3. Peace of soul


1. Squash gossip
2. Squash indifference
3. Squash grumbling
4. Squash selfishness


1. Lettuce be faithful
2. Lettuce be kind
3. Lettuce be patient
4. Lettuce really love one another


1. Turnip for meetings
2. Turnip for service
3. Turnip to help one another


1. Thyme for each other
2. Thyme for family

3. Thyme for friends

Water freely with patience
and cultivate with love.
There will be much fruit in your garden
because you reap what you sow.

He's a fruit in my garden... well... my sisters' garden.

March 18, 2007


Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
A life-changing plan will pop up when you take the lead. Don't hesitate to assert your needs. It's important to articulate what you want, especially when you see where these thoughts could lead.

taken on March 17th, 2007

March 14, 2007


"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,
show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."
He's many of the reasons why I smile ...

March 13, 2007

The TRUTH will set you FREE...

I said a lot of truths today, but it was denied, rejected, and erased. Oh well... can't say I didn't try. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice... uhhh... nevermind! That ain't happenin'!

You can blind people with your sweet words and innocent pleas... even your claims to have morals or ethics. Honey, I see right through it... but thanks for trying anyway. Its only a matter of time for them to see the real YOU that is just dying to get out.

Yes, I am quite obsessed with you. As I said to you before, Baby I'm AMAZED by YOU.

Keep on talking... my eyes will keep on ROLLING. oh... and Chris' will too!

I take it back...

I knew I couldn't stay off from KC for long. Actually... I was never off KC since this "break". I only wanted to take a break from the forums, but I can't refrain myself any longer. Not posting for a day was hard enough when there are people and posts just screaming and aching for an honest response.

She's backkkkkkkkk...

"Move _________, get out the way! Get out the way!"


Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
Trying to figure out what's really going on in someone else's head is a fool's game. And you're no a fool -- not by a long shot. So stop dwelling, let it go and do something more constructive with your time.

My horoscope reads me like a book... its starting to scare me how right on target it gets...

I'll just get lost in my OWN little virtual world...

March 12, 2007

A BREAK from KC...

Yeah... I think that its probably time for me to take a little break, eh? I don't know... KC does keep me entertained and does make my days go by so much quicker... and I love that about it. Maybe others would like the extra attention... I thought I did at some points. I guess attention is good to a certain extent. Sometimes I feel like I have to be alert and aware of what is being said and posted about me. Not that I care too much what people I don't even know have to say about me, but I think that I am expected to defend myself when called to. Blah...

As mentioned, it sounds a bit arrogant for me to think like this, but thats just how I feel. Yes, I admit to say quite a bit in the forums and I'm pretty much better known for speaking my mind... positive or negative. I do appreciate the flattery and praises as they come, but I'm just a bit overwhelmed. I know its all fun and games, but others certainly don't see it as that. I know that there are many people who are probably annoyed and irritated by the whole MsCambodia2002 hype, and I don't blame them. You're allowed to see me as "conceited" now and believe that I need to get over myself. Maybe I do... and thats why I should just take a deep breath and calm down in this whole KC popularity contest ordeal. Its not a contest... I just want to keep in touch with my friends, the ladies that I have grown close to.

With that said, don't be surprised to see me take a backseat in the whole posting war or turn it down a notch with my silly posts. Need me? You can find other ways of finding me than through the forums.



I love the LITTLE ones... they come in peace.

My weekend...

First and foremost, let me just say CONGRATULATIONS to Sophine and Visuth again! I already said it many times, but I am still as happy as ever for them. I mean, they've been together for a while and have known that they are going to spend the rest of their lives together, but this past weekend, it was the icing on the cake! And such perfect timing... right around her birthday!! :) Ahhhh... so happy and excited for the BOTH of you!

Weddings here, weddings there, everywhere a wedding! Its obvious... LOVE is in the air. *sigh*

Oh... and check out my "ipod" at the bottom of the page. I think I'm growing obsessed with it! :)

All I seem to do now is EAT. I don't know why, but I'm not even hungry and my mouth wants to eat, eat, eat. I have to tell myself, "Thyda, calm your ass down!" And the thing is, it wouldn't be a big deal if the food was healthy, but it seems that the more unhealthy it is, the more I want it. Proof that I am hard headed... kbal reung!

Saturday was so tiring... I would call it, "Family Fun Day". The family was out of the house for about 8 or 9 hours straight... TOGETHER. And what did we do all day? Eat... then shop... then EAT some more! I think thats one thing that ALL members of the family have in common. We ALL love to eat. :)

Sister baked cookies on Sunday! Sad... I spent most of my weekend chatting with my sister online... and she was in the next room! Oh well... at least now I have access to all the music on her computer! HAHAHA...

My other sister drove up here from Long Beach... and is spending the whole week here. Kind of excited to play with the sisters... but I have this feeling that we wouldn't be doing anything but EAT. Oh boy... how exciting! There goes my diet... *sigh*

Our childhood days... look at how girly my sisters were! Headbands and all!

March 9, 2007

Just one of 'em days...

We can't have "good days" everyday, can we? We wish we could, but we can't. Sometimes we pretend that we are having a good day although deep down, our hearts know that its not. We hope that the day would believe what we are pretending it to be and eventually be convinced that it is what we would only hope and want it to be.

I tried to believe that today is a good day. In fact, I try to believe that most days are good days. Bottled up inside are the things that we contain and keep to ourselves. Little things add up and we fill up that bottle as much as we could to the point where it just can't hold anymore. It doesn't help when it gets shaken from time to time... almost always unexpectedly. Eventually, things are going to blow up and it would be worse off than what it would have been if we never tried holding these little things in to begin with.

Lesson: Lets stop pretending that everything is okay. We're only temporarily fooling ourselves and eventually the truth will surface and it would be even harder to clean up the spills. Its better to prevent rather than to heal. Don't wait... think it through, talk it through, and work it out.

Lets face it, we can't turn our backs on everything...

Good times...

Its always a pleasure to hang out with old friends every now and then... and also meet and make new ones. Yesterday, I was able to persuade and round up other KCers to join me for dinner. It seems like they had a good time though! It was quite an interesting night and I still feel bad for Ben and Christina for witnessing the crazy, talking non-stop side of me. I'm not going to get into details, but I am pretty sure that they are never ever going to ride with me again. And if they do, they will be sure to bring ear plugs. For some reason, they stayed quiet 99.2% of the time. The 0.8% of the time was when they said, "Oh..." or "Yeah..." to acknowledge the fact that I was talking and they were STILL listening. LOL!

KCers at Phnom Penh Noodle House, Seattle

Nevertheless, the night was filled with many laughs. I still don't understand why ALL of my friends... I mean every group of my friends seem to make fun of me ALL the time. According to Rod, I make it easy. According to others, it just comes out naturally. Hmph! Even so, I had a lot of fun with my KCer homies... :) It was a low key night... no alcohol and dancing was involved... but I loved it!

Hope BigGameHunter had a great time... and hoping that he didn't go home with the conclusion of, "Seattle people are crazy!" or "I don't ever want to go back to Seattle!"

Its so hard to get into little details about the night, but just know that it evolved around my stories and KC! Many missed turns and wrong turns, mistaking strangers for BigGameHunter and throwing a PEACE sign at a complete stranger. Little do they know, I only made those wrong turns and twists because I wanted to spend more quality time in the car with them! Hahaha... I can't wait to get together with everyone again. Especially when they all serenaded me (or I'd like to believe so) with my favorite Khmer songs. I have lots of favorites. I still can't believe that Nack has that many songs on his Karaoke thingy that has to be used with a huge computer monitor because its so tough, a regular TV can't handle it! LOL

Those KC addicts and myself...

And to the people who took pictures or whose cameras got hijacked by me, make sure you send me the pictures... or ELSE! :D *evil laugh*

KCers included: Recca, Nack, Kwii, Narizm, SimplyGrl, BorosWA, BigGameHunter, and yours truly. Oh... BReal was there too... kinda! Haha...

Thank you, Buk_Dom for our dessert... all the way from the eastcoast!

March 8, 2007

Make up your mind, will you?

This whole change in weather and sunshine teasers are getting way out of hand! The other day it felt like it reached the 80's. I was excited and started making outdoorsy plans for the weekend (sorta). The next morning I looked out the window and was greeted with dark grey clouds and wet little sprinkles that seemed to have soaked the ground. What a disappointment!

If the weather keeps changing like this, how are supposed to plan our schedules accordingly? I mean... if its going to rain, then let it rain. Don't sneak in a sunny day in between to trick us. A little bit too early for April Fools' Day there, Mister Weatherman!!

Just let me enjoy my ice cream in the sun, will ya?

March 6, 2007

According to

I was reminded that I have an account on another Khmer online community today. Decided to log in and found a little self description of myself that I posted over a year ago:

i am a very very outgoing young lady. i can talk your ears off if you let me... so don't let me! i am learning little things about life... slowly. trying to take it all in and make better decisions for myself. i can be very naive at times... but i am trying hard to change that. although i am outgoing and seem to be very open, i am also quite reserved when it comes to personal issues. i always thought that i was an optimistic person, but its kind of hard to stay this way when you are stuck in certain situations. i admire strong, independent, and intelligent women. actually, i admire anyone who has done anything for themself and is happy with who and what they are. i may come off as bubbly and air-headed... maybe thats the way i want you to perceive me... but if you're going to judge me and really believe that i am that way, then perhaps you aren't worth my time? no one is perfect and i am far from perfect... nor do i pretend that i am or try to be. i have endless flaws and i believe i learn a new one each and every single day. need more?

And I STILL stand by that! :)

Its a BEAUTIFUL Day...

Its a beautiful day in the neighborhood!
A beauituful day in the neighborhood!

Would you be my... would you be my....
would you be... my neighbor!?!?

Ahhh... its a BEAUTIFUL day indeed! It was beautiful out yesterday as well, but I didn't take much notice yesterday. It hit me today that it should be SPRING right now! :) I actually had to whip out my sunglasses... which I LOVE to do! It shows that today's high is 61 degrees... but tomorrow's sunshine doesn't look too promising with chances of rain! :(

Rain, rain, go away! Come back out another day!
(or don't come back at all until next year please!)
I'm so glad that its finally beginning to warm up. Hopefully I can kiss my winter blues away. I've been really down this winter in comparison to other years. I can't seem to figure out why, but I'm guessing that the excessive rain and winterstorms that we had plays a big role in it. *sigh* I love Washington, I really do. Its a beautiful state and I feel privileged to have been born and grew up here, but sometimes the gloomy days and continuous rain puts a toll on me. I would love to live where the sun shines all the time and utilize a car wash more often rather than depend on the rain to do the job. And let me just let it be known that the rain makes your car look even worse! Thats just my take on that!

Anyways... I can't wait for this beautiful weather to stay for good. I miss the summer days and nights and the hikes with the girls. This year, I promise myself to hike even more! 4 or 5 times is not going to cut it!

One of my favorite sunny memories... JUMPING photoshoot w/ Nara!

March 5, 2007

A little honesty couldn't hurt...

For those who don't like me, It goes MIND over MATTER...I don't MIND,And you don't MATTER.

We can't expect everyone to like us or agree with everything that we say or do. That's life. Things are not always going to go our way and we can't seem to get everyone to see things in our perspective. That's life. People are going to be honest with us and say things that might hurt us or demean us in one way or another. That's life.

In this little journey that we like to call life, we are bound to face many challenges and obstacles that can be critical to our future. Why would we waste our time worrying about the opinions of people that mean nothing to us? People that don't know us and we would never want for them to know of us anyhow? The only people who really matter to me are the people that I care about. If I truly care about you, how you feel about me is more valuable than anything else to me. If you never took the time to get to know me and judged me from what you see at the surface, then chances are, your endless words and thoughts of me wouldn't budge me one bit. I commend you for trying anyhow.

I don't seem to understand why people feel that they need to portray themselves as being whole hearted, genuine, and kind. Worst of all, I don't see the benefits of self proclaiming these characteristics when it only contradicts the individual. If you are really what you claim and would like for others to believe you are, people would see it and you wouldn't have to emphasize it yourself. Your endless proclamations are old and tiring, and no one will be fooled by it but yourself. But then again, you shouldn't take my words to heart because I mean nothing to you. I'd be contradicting myself if I asked you to take my words into consideration. Its your call... just know that your claims to have morals and beliefs are transparent to me... I see right through it.

Its okay to have our noses in the air around people who don't matter.

March 4, 2007

Its the 4th of the month...

I was hoping to welcome today at midnight, but my lack of sleep finally caught up to me and I was pretty much snoring before it was 9pm. Woke up by 4am... hoping that I didn't miss the clock striking 12am... but obviously, I did. Silly me!

Many memories shared... and I would love to relive those memories every chance I got if given the opportunity. Well, the ball is not in my court and things don't pan out in my favor. I guess I just have to live my days cherishing those moments and anticipating the many more memories and moments to come. As I impatiently wait and anticipate, I can't help but to play those memories in my mind like a broken record.

March 1, 2007

I Miss Them...

Lately I've been missing and thinking about the people that I have crossed paths with and have given me something to hold close to my heart. These people have made me smile, laugh, and even cry. I am fortunate enough to have been able to know them and carry the memories of them with me wherever my heart may go. If I was to list everyone and write how I feel about each one, this entry can go on for days!

Cambodian Heritage Camp was an experience that I still and will always cherish. It was an eye opener and an emotional ride from the beginning until the end... but that end is yet to come and I know that it is a long way from now. Heartwarming and inspiring, I am proud and honored to have been granted the opportunity to be a part of something special beyond the surface and the eyes. I met a lot of peers whom I grew to admire and some I learned to love. Each counselor contributed something valuable to the team that helped piece the puzzle together. We were definitely the Dream Team... built from all different corners of the United States!

Those kids that you see up there... those are MY kids. You can only imagine what its like for them growing up... learning and knowing what adoption is, and realizing that they have been adopted from a country that is as unique as Cambodia at such a young age. I sometimes wonder what goes on in their minds or what questions they may have about their life. Unfortuanately, not all of their questions can be answered. In fact, most of their questions will be left unanswered, but they will always wonder what those answers could possibly be. Their childhood and adolescence is not going to be the same as everyone else's. Confusion and frustration will arise, and we're trying to teach them about their roots and discuss predictable curiosities that are to come. Hopefully each camp session benefits the children, their families, and even other volunteers in one way or another.

Three or four days is such a short period of time. Its hard to believe that you can fall in love and grow so attached to people. Well, BELIEVE IT! The group that I worked with were between the ages of 5 to 7. Probably one of my favorite age groups that challenge you more than you'd expect them to! Great group of kids, I must add. Each one has a personality that you just adore and can't help but fall in love with.

The whole experience was very rewarding. Tiring as it may, our days were filled with smiles, laughter, and excitement. I grew really attached to my kids and it was heartwarming and fulfilling to see that they grew attached to me as well. I was pretty shocked to hear from the kids, "You're like my big sister," or "I love you," or even ask you not to leave them. Speechless. Those words are so powerful and left me emotional to the point where I'd hug them and hold them, hoping that they wouldn't see my tears. I never realized that I can become so close and care so much for complete little strangers so fast. I can't help but wonder if they're going to remember me 10 or 20 years from now... but I know that I will remember them.

As you can see, it was hard to leave my awesome orange team. Actually, it was hard to leave any of the kids since we had the chance to meet kids outside of our assigned teams as well. Physical departure was difficult (see below), but emotional departure was even harder.

I hate the thought that I might not get the chance to see some of them ever again. I'd love to see each and every one of those munchkins over and over for years to come. For now, I am determined to make it back to Camp this summer. I made promises that I intend to keep. Promises to my kids, and a promise to myself.

And these two ladies with me here, they are two of the other counselors that are also my role models, my friends, and my mentors. They've stuck with me through my difficult and challenging times. Never once did they judge me or condescend me in any way. Some friends come and go, but few will stick with you and be there for you when you need them most. Few will be honest even when it hurts, and loyal to you even if they risk. Yep, these are the few. Lucky for me, I brought them home! :)