June 28, 2007


Grace pointed my horoscope out to me this morning and I've been procrastinating on blogging it:

Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
Pack your bags, grab your passport and take off for parts unknown. You can reignite your passionate nature. Who knows? Romance could also thrive when you move away from familiar settings and take the plunge into the unknown.

VERY interesting indeed.

I've been neglecting my blog lately... but there really isn't much to say. Well... I started on a few different entries and haven't exactly finished any of them. *sigh* Focus Thyda... FOCUS!

June 25, 2007

Question --> Answer

Seriously people... if you really didn't want an answer, why ask the question?

People are bound to have different answers and difference in opinions. If you don't want to hear it, then don't freakin' ask. If you're not going to read it, then don't ask because you're wasting people's time for trying to answer your freakin' question that you obviously asked for!

I mean... its one thing when its done on the forums because we tend to forget to check responses to some threads we make, right? BUT its a whole different story when you page someone to ask them a question that you seem to want an answer for!! I mean, if you don't want to hear the answer or you're not going to read it anyway, don't even bother because you are wasting my AND other peoples time!!!

If all you wanted to do was make a statement, then do that... but don't ASK!

June 20, 2007


Its nearly 5am and I am still awake. I can't believe I didn't even sleep tonight. Why? I really don't know. Rest assured, I was not online. This is my first time signing on since 10pm actually. I was channel surfing and found a few things interesting on TV... most of them were infomercials. This is getting ridiculous and I need to get back into the habit of sleeping during regular hours again. I can picture myself at work in about 4 hours... a lot like a zombie.

Sleeping pills might be my next resort... but I don't know if that's such a great idea.

*yawns* Now that I am sleepy, I have to wake up in two hours. Great. Just freakin' great! :(

June 19, 2007

My Addiction

Today Grace asked me if I can be a little bit more discreet about my loser status or at the very least, not be so proud. Haha... I thought that it was a hilarious request and got me chuckling at my desk like crazy. Its kind of hard for me to do either since anyone who had ever been on the beloved KhmerConnection can already conclude that I am quite a "LOSER" since I am on this darn thing what seems to be 24/7. I have no shame in admitting this. The cyber world's only limit is that you can't experience the things you encounter in the real world (ie. places, people, things, senses, etc.), but thats where your imagination come into play. Maybe I'm still stuck in my younger years mentality where imagination is everything, but I can honestly say that I am intrigued by this 1 dimensional world... or is it?

I like how I can express myself on here and how I can share my thoughts and opinions with others. Sure, there are some who object to certain things I say and there are many who would oppose to it automatically. Why? Because people are bound to have differences in opinions and so it should always be expected that not everyone is going to agree with you... and I for one, can accept that fact and move on. The freedom of speech is just that... everyone is free to say what ever it is that they feel. People have walked different paths in life and will most certainly have a different perspective on certain things... thats just the way it is. It is encouraged that we all share how we feel so that we can each learn a thing or two from one another, but there is no point in going out of your way to try to get people to view things the way you do. I believe that each person has their reason for having their mindset the way it is and who are we to determine what's right and what's wrong? Opinions are just that... opinions. If you ask for someone's opinion, I sure hope that you are ready to accept ALL opinions... those similar to yours and those that are anything but similar to yours. I can understand if someone feels degraded or demeaned by their decisions and what they choose to do with themselves and their lives, but I advise they don't forget that there is bound to be someone who will speak out of ignorance. Thats just the way they are and I commend anyone for trying to help enlighten them, but it later grows pointless to even waste your efforts. Blah...

Nevertheless... I am amused, intrigued, and few times enlightened by what I read here daily. Its so addicting and anyone who had given it a chance can probably see why. I also don't blame anyone for being turned off by some of the things they may see at first because a lot of it is nonsense that I admit to contribute to... haha! I see KC as just a place where people can sit back and enjoy themselves and through the forums, participate in different discussions. Some are worth reading, and some are going to leave you pissed off for even clicking on the thread. I've met a lot of wonderful people through here and maybe that is why I appreciate it so much. It keeps me occupied and often times had even forced me to change me plans or not do what I intended to do because I am so hooked. Loser, I know. I see this as a big ol' community... just like the real world. We meet people and share our experiences and our thoughts if we choose to. We learn little things about each other which help us get an idea of what the person is really like in the real world. Although I appreciate genuine people who are going to be honest on here, I can't be angry or upset with people who choose to portray themselves as something they're not either. I mean... we're all on here for different reasons and I believe that there are certain people who come on here and use this forum as an outlet for their ego to run wild and have a ball since they can't do so in the real world. As Bong Saw (Bong K's boyfriend) had said, "anyone can be a supermodel online". It is so true! What we know about a person is very limited and we'll have to base our perception of them by what we see and read. I guess thats their choice and if they're happy doing so, then so be it. This is why I choose not to get so upset with certain individuals whom I believe are on here for that reason. Do as you wish... I just know that I personally choose to be myself and will portray myself to be exactly how I really am. What you see, is what you get. Those that know me and know me well... and have actually taken the time and effort to get to know me, can attest to this. Believe as you may, because it is not my duty or my desire to make you believe what I know.

As much as I love and am devoted to my 5 years and counting addiction, I do admit that I need to find other interests. Five years is a long period of time... and I am starting to think that I have read and said almost everything that can possibly be shared here. If it wasn't for certain wonderful people that I would like to keep in touch with and sometimes observe, it would probably be easier for me to leave. I often meet new people on here though, and I sometimes build a friendship and grow attached to them. Therefore, it would be hard for me to leave permanently... so I don't think anyone should expect me to. For many, that is probably a disappointment... and I apologize... but that's how its gonna be, my dear!


I'm so excited for Nara's engagement! Apparently Nara's dad had been thinking about it and been planning it out. The color apparently is red... well... Nara will be wearing red and I'm not too sure what Grace and I will be wearing. I think we're trying on the clothes or something this weekend. I'm too large to be wearing anything cute, in my opinion... but I guess I'm gonna have to. Yay me! Really honored that Nara selected me as one of her bridesmaids actually considering the fact that she had many friends to choose from. Awww..."Ah Bong Kra" is all grown up! LOL... if she sees that, she's probably gonna kill me! Yikes! But yeah... so excited!

June 18, 2007

FUNNY horoscope

Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
Yes, you're much fitter since you started that exercise program, but not everyone wants to hear about it in excruciating detail. If people's eyes are glazing over when you discuss your running regimen, change the topic.

LOL... I guess this might have applied to me IF I really was on an exercise program and if I was the least bit fitter! Haha... just goes to show that my horoscope had faith in me... sorta. LOL

June 17, 2007


Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
Does it seem like a friend you've known almost your entire life is suddenly changing? In your view, it's definitely not for the better. But everything -- and everyone -- changes. Maybe it's you who's different.

Perhaps... but different or not, I'm content with just being me and the way I is... :)


I pretty much need a life... yes. But until I find one, I'm enjoying the life I have in this cyber world. Thank you kindly to the members that have been making me laugh like crazy these past few days. You guys are so crazy!

My favorite:

Originally posted by KSaron
The Chatterbox is good for one thing. It occupy the gangster's time to keep them away from trouble.

Hahahaha... if it wasn't for the Chatterbox, I'd be robbing a bank or holding someone at gunpoint. THANK YOU The Chatterbox for keeping me on this side of the bars! :)

June 13, 2007

Bragging Moment

The other day I was talking about kvah koh (Cambodian sausages) and how much I wanted it. The ones at the stores here aren't that good. So today... guess what my mommy called and told me she received? A box full of 30 kvah koh that my beloved sent to me expedited all the way from Long Beach! Haha... his mommy went and bought it for him to send to me! Hehehe... can't wait to get home and eat it!

Oh... and I kinda missed KC. Although it doesn't excite me like it used to, I must say that today was quite mind stimulating... thanks to a few. And I mean, a VERY few.

June 12, 2007

Smashbox Model Search 2007

So only a few weeks ago, I decided to enter the contest that I had been intrigued by for months. I am quite a chicken and was afraid of entering because all of the girls were pretty and I was VERY intimidated. I noticed that there were people joining every day... some with nothing more but a cell phone picture. Having done only a few photo shoots in the past, I figured that I had nothing to lose and to just go ahead and join to see how it all worked. The competition started in March, but I didn't join until mid May. I was obviously really behind since the first phase was over in June... June 10th to be exact. I thought to myself that there was no way in heck that I would make it to the second phase with such little time since there were over 6,000 contestants already in the run. I told a few friends about it and they started to vote and spread the word. Surprisingly, I moved up and was amongst the first half within a day. Haha... I know that being in the higher half of 6,000 people in a competition with only one grand prize winner is nothing to really brag about, but I was excited regardless!

I truly believed that only one vote counted throughout the competition from each IP address. Seeing that the girl ranking at first place had over 12,000 votes and I had a mere 100 or 200, I lost hope once again. There was no way in heck I can get even 100 more votes than I already had at the time. The very next day, a friend told me that he was able to vote once again. i gave it a shot... and so was I! I guess the votes reset each day and you can vote once each day from each IP address. I soon learned that the votes reset at midnight. I regained hope! YAY! I set a goal for myself... to at least make it amongst the top 50 and become a semi-finalist. The small amount of makeup as the prize for doing so wasn't so bad either. ;)

Myspace bulletins, KC threads, and mass emails were made... some by me and most by my friends. Within only a week, I was amongst the top 200! Thats pretty good if you ask me... considering my late entry and the number of contestants altogether. I was on a high and was excited... and overwhelmed at the same time. I told (asked) people to vote for me. At first I thought that I was being pretty pathetic for asking people to vote and was afraid that people would ridicule and criticize me for being an aspired model... apparently. But then I sat back and thought to myself that opportunities don't always just sit and wait at your doorstep and an open mouth is never fed... if I want something, I'm going to have to do and work for it myself. And so, I did. Oh... and I know that I'm not the thinnest nor am I the prettiest girl to grace the Earth... I never claimed to be. Throughout my 22 years of existence, I was sometimes praised, but very often mocked and criticized. Trust me... I have gotten used to it and should probably always expect it by now. Though I must admit, I was still a little butthurt for about a second... but then I thought to myself, everyone is entitled to their opinions and I am in no position to try to change their mind or opinion on me. In fact, I know that I am not everyone's favorite person and I never exactly tried to be either. I am no exception to karma, never thought I'd be given any slack either. There are a FEW people that I have taunted as well and I have no tendency of denying any of it... but I know for a fact that I have a reason for doing and saying everything. Said individuals are well aware of my reasons also, though I can't promise that they'll own up to it nor will they ever be done with their denial stage. Oh well... things happen for a reason and we live and learn, right? So to answer any curiosities as to if I'm hurt by any criticism, yes. I won't deny the fact that mean things said about me does concern me... but just know that it doesn't hurt too much nor does it last too long. In fact, I thank you for being honest and saying how you truly feel. As cliche as it may be, "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". Thank you.

More over, I was (and I still am) amazed and flattered by all the people who have shown me much support. By the end of the first round, I had well over 4,000 votes and was ranking amongst the top 20. I MADE IT! I was beyond flattered and appreciative of all of the support that I have gotten through the first round of the competition. Each word of encouragement that I received from friends, family, acquaintances... even complete strangers melted my heart and lifted my spirits. My loved ones showed me 10 times as much support that I could have ever asked for. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Now I am on to the second round in this surprisingly intense competition. The votes did not reset like we all had thought it would, so the competition is so much tougher than I have imagined. Being amongst the top 10 of these women is a far fetch and again, I was starting to lose hope after seeing the number of votes they had. But after seeing that my vote count jumped at roughly 300 within the first day of the second round, my glass is half full again! If only the votes would stay at that steady rate, I do have a chance! So here I am, with my optimistic hopes of making it... working my butt off and trying to better myself physically and mentally... hoping that maybe one day I will have a chance and will make it somewhere in this extremely tough industry. I even took a few minor steps into changing my habits and my focus. I need to be more productive and focus on myself... work for what I want. Time is precious and I can't exactly bargain nor ask for more... so I will make the best use of it for my own benefit. I miss my old rituals and routine, but I just know that most changes are good and are meant to happen at some point. Most of the time, its for the better. I'll pick up on whatever it is that I left behind once I get the ball moving though.

There are many, many beautiful women amongst the top 50... and I'd be lying if I said that I deserved a higher ranking than ANY of them. I'm already happy knowing that I surpassed my goal, but I am even more pleased knowing that I still have many people who love and support me. I realized that even though there are a few that only hope to see me fail, there are still many that care for me and would like the best for me and see me succeed. Honestly, that is a much more valuable prize than any money or fame can buy.

Once again, thank YOU.

Yours truly,


June 11, 2007

My Momma

Grace. She is so awesome. I was so happy to see her this weekend.


I hate being sick. I've been having this cold for a few weeks now. My nose is always runny and I sniff like crazy that even I annoy myself. Didn't get to enjoy the weekend too much and missed out on a few friends' graduation festivities due to overlaps and my sniffles. Will definitely make it up to them though.

Right now, I just wanna crawl into my bed and go nighty night.

June 9, 2007


Its amazing how some people only mature in age and age alone while maturity level stands still... and this is coming from the most immature person known to mankind... or so I thought. Sometimes I wonder if they're that bored or if they really do find pleasure and assurance in beating themselves up in a one man battle. Am I being hypocritical again? Haha... it happens! ;)

On another note, I feel like I accomplished something yesterday (Friday). Quite an interesting experience which I very much enjoyed. Thank you Stubby for my beautiful card in which her homie "Chad" gave me an intriguing show... haha! *mwuah*

I miss my girlfriends on KC... but as I said... each and every single one of them know exactly how to get a hold of me otherwise. I'll be back one day... but got much more to focus on right now rather than the same ol' bullshit that I've grown quite accustomed to. Why don't people just surprise me already?

Exactly 6 months to my birthday... let the countdown begin! Hehehe... no worries... wish list shall be up soon! :)

June 7, 2007


Last night was awesome. I was dreaming the whole night and for some reason, I can remember most of it. The reason why is probably because I woke up happily to it... while I was still somewhat dreaming. In a way, it was kind of weird. Multiple dreams... but they were all a continuation from one to the other. They were all about my family. Good and bad. I was dreaming of fights and arguments within the family that never really happened. For example, I was getting into a heated argument with one of my distant cousins whom I barely talk to and she is so much older than me. I call her, "Jai Jrean"... but we never really talked.. ever. If I remember correctly, her mother is my mommy's cousin. I still see her all the time, and its weird that we never talk because we were never close. Another weird one was I was fighting with my cousin who was the son of my dad's older brother. Weird thing is... my uncle doesn't have any kids... but this cousin was the spitting image of him. I also dreamed that the family was reunited and were all having a good time just like how we did back in the days. Its hard to ever have something like that now since everyone is all grown up and gone their separate ways. Both of my parents came from huge families and almost every one of their siblings had about a million offsprings and they had their share of offsprings. I think its safe to say that I probably have over 150 relatives in America. No joke.

My siblings and I would occasionally reminisce about the good ol' days with the family and we'd acknowledge the fact that we wish we can get everyone together again. It seems quite impossible, but its all worth a try. I just wish that I had more money to work with and actually plan something for everyone. * sigh *

June 6, 2007


Things are happening... dream slowly but surely becoming a reality. One step at a time, Thyda... one step at a time.

Note to self: Small changes will eventually make a big difference. Patience, my friend.

Another note to self: Stop with your stupid procrastination.

June 5, 2007


As if I wasn't already broke as it is (to the point where I sometimes consider hanging myself just to get away from it all... seriously), I get a fucken ticket... right in front of my own fucken house.

Great, isn't it? Fuckity Fuck Fuck.
My Man of Steel (literally)...

I miss him... a lot.

June 4, 2007


As always, my weekend was great but went by WAY too fast. I hate it when that happens.

Got to hang out with my niece and nephews on Saturday. It was the cutest thing... Imagine 6 of those little munchkins all on my bed watching Pokemon. I was started to fall asleep... then Kenneth started to fall asleep on me... I felt loved. :)

Sunday... the family left the house EARLY for some dim sum. The place we went to, we've never been... and I don't ever wanna go there again. I have never received such horrible customer service from a restaurant. Dude... they didn't even have rice because the kitchen was closed. Why the hell are you going to have the restaurant open at 10 if your kitchen isn't open until noon? What do you want us to do? Eat chopsticks? Thing is... other people were at the restaurant too, and they didn't seem too satisfied either. So after my sister paid that 80 something dollar bill for food that barely soaked our teeth, we got up and left to go eat pho! Dude... that place charged each person for tea... including the 4 kids... one of them is ONE year old for crying out loud... he doesn't know how to drink your damn tea! Oh... and I asked for forks and the waitress goes, "Oh my god!" WTF!?!?! Screw you and your chopsticks too!

LOL... that was an awesome venting session, I tell yah! We were at Great Wall shopping mall, so of course, I had yummy food. Yummy squid... and I'm allergic but the taste is so worth the rashes! Hehe!

My brother and his family were supposed to go to the waterfront with me so that we can jog, but instead we ended up spending time online trying to figure out how much he can see his condo in Alaska for. Then... it was almost time for me to meet up with the girls at Pearl's condo. But I managed to squeeze in a little jogging session with my niece, Natalie right before. People probably thought we were crazy because it was scorching hot... but two miles is NOTHING compared to the 12 miles that Grace ran around Greenlake that day. I promise you... that girl is crazy and I wanna be just like her!

Ladies' Night In at Pearl's... and it was my first time at her place so it was pretty much a house warming that she's prolonged for awhile. Very cute place and its so cute how she keeps it all tidy. Makes me want my own place too, darn it... but I am far far away from that, sadly. Pretty much in love with her painting in her dining area. Its a pear... but you wouldn't understand unless you saw it there and is surroundings. Pearl cooked up some really good and HEALTHY food. I've never enjoyed healthy food so much. I don't think I consumed an ounce of grease, but it was still good... so I had to indulge in a slice of chocolate cream pie!! Hehe... I even got some pasta salad for lunch today! I can't wait... this is exciting! Oh... and I can't believe it started to pour down rain out of nowhere when the sky was just clear and the sun was just scorching! Weird Seattle weather, I tell yah!

Great conversations last night... despite how they were making fun of me for unsaid reasons for a bit. Punks, I tell you! Smart girls whom I really admire... awwww... I love them!

June 1, 2007

Riya Ray

I haven't been this excited in SO long. My idol for some time now (Riya Ray) sent me a personal message telling me, "you look like an angel"! Can you believe it? The most beautiful girl I've pretty much ever seen (pictures) sent me a message to compliment ME! I swear its supposed to be the other way around! I look at her pictures pretty much everyday (Nack can attest to this) and have always always admired her beauty. Was always too intimidated to send her anything because she has many admirers as it is... but damn... she sent ME a message and left ME a picture comment!

Isn't she just stunningly gorgeous?

Ahhhh... had a nice brief conversation with her tonight and I am sooooooooooooo star struck. I officially love her all over again! *sigh* She even told me that I don't have to call her "Riya Ray"... just "Riya" will do since we're "friends"! Ahhhh... do you realize how happy I am? I saved the conversation for future reference and for anyone who would like to see. LOL... I told her that I just text and emailed some friends to tell them that she got in contact with me (Sam, Nack, and Jane). She's very helpful and man... freakin' beautiful!

Okay... enough. I'm going to bed with a HUGE smile on my face tonight... thats for sure! :)


Its amazing how my horoscopes seem to always be right on target.


Sagittarius (Nov. 23 - Dec. 21)
Putting aside your hard-won principles seems like a strange move to make, but recent events require that you do some major adjustments when it comes to your philosophy of life. It's good to stay flexible.

So true... so true.

On a brighter note, I am focusing on things that I've always wanted to do. Time to get serious. Many that I need to get back to and work on collaborations with. This morning alone... 3 different offers. This is probably my smartest move yet.

I am thankful for all of my loved ones and their support and encouragement. You guys keep me sane. Love you!